this is gonna be my last entry for this fucking waste of time, those of you worth talking to will know how to reach me

FUCK YOU, you know who you are

Libra-- You don't ordinarily like the idea of being alone -- or of doing anything alone, in fact, no matter what it happens to be. Now may be an exception, though. In fact, if someone tries to stir things up around you, instead of automatically allowing you to slip into your peacemaker costume, you may simply grab your keys and hit the highway. Well, good for you. Believe it or not, you're not responsible for solving the world's problems. Well, not all of them.... –

This was my horoscope for today and damn it, it hit the nail right on the head. Here lately all I’ve felt like doing is running away from everything. It’s like I’m an emotional ball of tears and frustration….its like everything is hundred times worse than it really should be. I think I’m gonna start working out again….like since I met mark I really haven’t had time for anything but him and school. But now I think its time I find my balance amongst all the chaos I seem to find myself in. I think I’m gonna make a new habit of eating at least two meals a day and working out 5 nights a week. Because when I was working out everyday I never felt like this, I think I’m letting everything that bugs me slowly build up till I get to a point of not being able to be around anyone or anything without losing my mind. I need to let go of some of it and the only way that I can is to go run.

This weekend was ok, Friday I went to the Fossil Ridge vs. Keller game, we won, WOOT. Then me and Justin went to the bowling alley intending to play a couple of games of pool but only ended up playing these driving games, I whooped his ass. Then he took me to my dad’s house. I got some money form my mom…..I’m waiting for my money from my grandpa so I can pay for my tattoo. My dad is taking me on Tuesday or Wednesday….I want Mark to go with me, but I dunno if he’ll wanna go.

I went to see Corpse Bride Saturday, it was good….not as good as I thought but still good.

Well I guess that’s it for now….not much else to say…..

To Mark, I love you baby.

Jess

Well, my birthday was definitely unlike any I’ve ever had. It all started off with me getting in a car accident. At 12:30am me and mark went to get some Jack in the Box and as we were on our way home we got hit so we spent o good hour swapping information and talking to the police. Then by the time we got home I was so tired that I just wanted to go to bed. Then about 8 hrs later I got up to go out to breakfast with Justin at Ihop, his treat. It was good, I got coffee I wish I could afford to start every morning like that. Then at 10:00 I had to go to Anthropology and that was okay cause I actually really like that class. Then I had to go to Biology, Women’s Health which is another class that I really enjoy so that was ok….then I went with my dad and my little brother to Johnny Corinos to eat…it was really good….i had tiramisu too…..mmmmm….my favorite dessert. But I think my favorite part were the gifts that Mark got me. He did such a good job. The day before my birthday he took me to the mall so he could see what kind of things I like…and we walked around and I kinda mentioned little things here and there but I didn’t really show him anything….but when he brought me then gifts, he like remembered everything that I liked….all the gifts were things that I like….he bought me a pair of shoes the I liked at Payless, 2 little things that you hang on your wall that had Betty Boop on them, a little Bamboo plant that I liked, and 2 books from Barnes and Noble one on astrology and the other on dreams …..he actually paid attention to the things that I liked and I love that…..he’s so wonderful, he spoils me rotten…..i love him so much…………baby, if you read this, I love you so much and I always will.

Um I guess that’s it……..lots of fun….or something like that, but it definitely was the best birthday ever………

Love you guys

Jess

MY BIRTHDAY IS TOMORROW GUYS!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I’m gonna be 18.

So cool!!!!!!!